Alik - Jackie
i changed a few small things in this poem, and i know there was more criticism but i dont remember what it was so here it is again, slightly edited. I think this is what im going to bring to Herkimer.
We were very different, I mean,
I say potato, you say potahto
I say tomato, you say tomahto,
I don’t know if I was especially “in the mood”
I say “and you thought I was going to be good at this”,
And you say, “Well neither of us were very good.”
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Trust is a funny thing,
Sometimes I have too much, sometimes not enough,
But after you broke that shelf the first time,
I should have called your bluff
Because falling once doesn’t mean you can’t fall again,
And I guess I should have known that then,
Oh well, live and learn, I’m still in my prime,
And they say your second, is really your first time
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First broken, returning from vacation to hear various versions
Of every specific little detail entailed in our midnights excursion
For the things I heard I should have charged a levy
For each tail regaled of my own “hot and heavy”
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I hate to point you out as this guy,
But that thing you said about the mole you found on me,
Well I know that was straight from the movie Vanilla Sky,
And I gave you an E for effort, because we both worked hard that first night,
You started speaking in Russian and I let you leave on the light,
We were both a little over excited, but at least at that time it was fully requited.
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Trust had and un-had I should have withheld
My privacy shattered and dignity felled
Meant nothing to you, though you shared me your shame
I found after feeling, you acted the same,
Same hypersexual, three strike, get off on a school gym bike,
Guy who just doesn’t know when to quit,
How all those manuals you read didn’t do shit.
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I lay in the semi-darkness
Everything feels in mind, out of sight,
The only way of coping,
Knowing that it wasn’t my fault things didn’t go right.
And one day, yeah, maybe I will see you again,
But I know I wont make the mistakes I made then,
I’m better for what I’ve done, rather, I live and I learn,
And wait, dodging hurt and potential burn.
Awaiting lucidity, in the form of another,
Potential friend, potential lover.
3 years ago • Notes