November 9, 2008

Genetic Inheritance - Jackie

 Don’t pretend that you understand the human brain,

The human body, the family body

My family’s body, my family’s brains,

My brain

My brain

My brain

I don’t question your bad back, your weak knees, your clogged pores

My genetic inheritance is just a little less tangible than yours

sometimes I feel like stigma around my doors keeps them closed but

This is not a lifestyle I chose

I cant, always be in control of the ways that I feel

The intensity of which haven’t always fully understood

But I can tell you that a lifetime of living with myself

Has taught me more about it than you ever could

‘cuz you just learned how to swim think you understand my fears

when I have been living under this water for years

do you really think that all those churlish words you deliver

haven’t now before and then again been considered

I’ve got

shadows sewn to my heels that follow me daunting

got a

Hole in my head that leave my heart wanting

But my shadows and holes, I don’t let them define me

They just, add their weight as they drag on behind me

I firmly believe that the struggle makes me strong

So I can stand here singing this silken birdsong

I got my setraline, I got my SSRI’s

I’ve got what light connects the only world I know to my eyes

So come on tell me you know, so tell me you need,

Come on and tell me things I feel are feelings needlessly freed

Bring me back from bloom until I’m smaller than seed

Deprive me of the nutrients on which I must feed

Forget me in the soil and then leave me alone

Because I’m already planted, and I’ve already grown,

I’ve faced the sun without you and I managed just fine,

So you take your inheritance, and I’ll stick to mine.

 

Story line, work up to verse 1 and 2, put them more in the middle

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